{"id":5227,"date":"2026-07-12T14:06:52","date_gmt":"2026-07-12T14:06:52","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/sebastianrowlands.com\/?page_id=5227"},"modified":"2026-07-12T15:46:00","modified_gmt":"2026-07-12T15:46:00","slug":"20-years-of-gender-euphoria-2019-present","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/sebastianrowlands.com\/?page_id=5227","title":{"rendered":"20 years of gender euphoria (2019-present)"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">An ongoing project to capture my transition process and reflect on the moments of misalignment. I take the 20 years of gender dysphoria I lived through as the starting point to imagine forward into 20 more years of gender euphoria. 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The text contains an email exchange between the artist and their uncle.\" ><\/div><div class=\"thumbnail-overlay\"><div class=\"rbsTitle \">Some important news, 2019<\/div><div class=\"rbsIcons\"><i class=\"fa fa-search-plus rbsZoomIcon \" ><\/i><\/div><\/div><\/div><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img  category4930 \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-image   rbs-lightbox \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-thumbs\"  data-thumbnail=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/DSC_1756-scaled-e1754219607506.jpg?fit=300%2C203&#038;ssl=1\"  title=\"Altar to &#039;The Princess&#039;\"  data-width=\"300\"  data-height=\"203\" ><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img-data-popup\"  data-popup=\"https:\/\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/DSC_1756-scaled-e1754219607506.jpg\"  title=\"Altar to &#039;The Princess&#039;\" ><\/div><div class=\"thumbnail-overlay\"><div class=\"rbsTitle \">Altar to &#039;The Princess&#039;<\/div><div class=\"rbsIcons\"><i class=\"fa fa-search-plus 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data-popup=\"https:\/\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/The-Rogue-scaled-e1754220999561.png\"  title=\"Character Study: The Rogue, 2025\" ><\/div><div class=\"thumbnail-overlay\"><div class=\"rbsTitle \">Character Study: The Rogue, 2025<\/div><div class=\"rbsIcons\"><i class=\"fa fa-search-plus rbsZoomIcon \" ><\/i><\/div><\/div><\/div><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img  category4930 \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-image   rbs-lightbox \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-thumbs\"  data-thumbnail=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/The-Princess-scaled-e1754220443479.png?fit=300%2C284&#038;ssl=1\"  title=\"Character Study: The Princess, 2025\"  data-width=\"300\"  data-height=\"284\" ><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img-data-popup\"  data-popup=\"https:\/\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/The-Princess-scaled-e1754220443479.png\"  title=\"Character Study: The Princess, 2025\" ><\/div><div class=\"thumbnail-overlay\"><div class=\"rbsTitle \">Character Study: The Princess, 2025<\/div><div class=\"rbsIcons\"><i class=\"fa fa-search-plus rbsZoomIcon \" ><\/i><\/div><\/div><\/div><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img  category4930 \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-image   rbs-lightbox \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-thumbs\"  data-thumbnail=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/IMG_20250513_0758373-scaled-e1754220110277.jpg?fit=300%2C225&#038;ssl=1\"  title=\"Character busts: \u2018The Warrior\u2019 and \u2018The Princess\u2019, 2025\"  data-width=\"300\"  data-height=\"225\" ><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img-data-popup\"  data-popup=\"https:\/\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/IMG_20250513_0758373-scaled-e1754220110277.jpg\"  title=\"Character busts: \u2018The Warrior\u2019 and \u2018The Princess\u2019, 2025\" ><\/div><div class=\"thumbnail-overlay\"><div class=\"rbsTitle \">Character busts: \u2018The Warrior\u2019 and \u2018The Princess\u2019, 2025<\/div><div class=\"rbsIcons\"><i class=\"fa fa-search-plus rbsZoomIcon \" ><\/i><\/div><\/div><\/div><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img  category4930 \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-image   rbs-lightbox \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-thumbs\"  data-thumbnail=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/i-dont-want-your-masculinity-either_49461499851_o-scaled-e1674496329810.jpg?fit=300%2C225&#038;ssl=1\"  title=\"I don&#039;t want your masculinity either, 2019\"  data-width=\"300\"  data-height=\"225\" ><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img-data-popup\"  data-popup=\"https:\/\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/i-dont-want-your-masculinity-either_49461499851_o-scaled-e1674496329810.jpg\"  title=\"I don&#039;t want your masculinity either, 2019\"  data-alt=\"A blue denim skirt is embroidered in red and yellow thread with phrases including &#039;Lads&#039; &#039;BUD&#039; &#039;MATE&#039; &#039;very butch&#039; and &#039;what were you born as&#039;.\" ><\/div><div class=\"thumbnail-overlay\"><div class=\"rbsTitle \">I don&#039;t want your masculinity either, 2019<\/div><div class=\"rbsIcons\"><i class=\"fa fa-search-plus rbsZoomIcon \" ><\/i><\/div><\/div><\/div><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img  category4930 \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-image   rbs-lightbox \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-thumbs\"  data-thumbnail=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/06\/9.2-I-dont-want-your-masculinity-either2_fabric-embroidery-threat-scaled-e1718826570253.jpg?fit=300%2C137&#038;ssl=1\"  title=\"9.2 I don&#039;t want your masculinity either2_fabric, embroidery threat\"  data-width=\"300\"  data-height=\"137\" ><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img-data-popup\"  data-popup=\"https:\/\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/06\/9.2-I-dont-want-your-masculinity-either2_fabric-embroidery-threat-scaled-e1718826570253.jpg\"  title=\"9.2 I don&#039;t want your masculinity either2_fabric, embroidery threat\" ><\/div><div class=\"thumbnail-overlay\"><div class=\"rbsTitle \">9.2 I don&#039;t want your masculinity either2_fabric, embroidery threat<\/div><div class=\"rbsIcons\"><i class=\"fa fa-search-plus rbsZoomIcon \" ><\/i><\/div><\/div><\/div><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img  category4930 \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-image   rbs-lightbox \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-thumbs\"  data-thumbnail=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/Another-Message_Mall-Galleries2-scaled-e1754220925738.jpg?fit=204%2C300&#038;ssl=1\"  title=\"Another Message, 2025\"  data-width=\"204\"  data-height=\"300\" ><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img-data-popup\"  data-popup=\"https:\/\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/Another-Message_Mall-Galleries2-scaled-e1754220925738.jpg\"  title=\"Another Message, 2025\" ><\/div><div class=\"thumbnail-overlay\"><div class=\"rbsTitle \">Another Message, 2025<\/div><div class=\"rbsIcons\"><i class=\"fa fa-search-plus rbsZoomIcon \" ><\/i><\/div><\/div><\/div><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img  category4930 \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-image   rbs-lightbox \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-thumbs\"  data-thumbnail=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/06\/Gabriel_close-scaled-e1718813916482.jpg?fit=300%2C292&#038;ssl=1\"  title=\"Gabriel: A moment of recognition, 2023\"  data-width=\"300\"  data-height=\"292\" ><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img-data-popup\"  data-popup=\"https:\/\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/06\/Gabriel_close-scaled-e1718813916482.jpg\"  title=\"Gabriel: A moment of recognition, 2023\" ><\/div><div class=\"thumbnail-overlay\"><div class=\"rbsTitle \">Gabriel: A moment of recognition, 2023<\/div><div class=\"rbsIcons\"><i class=\"fa fa-search-plus rbsZoomIcon \" ><\/i><\/div><\/div><\/div><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img  category4930 \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-image   rbs-lightbox \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-thumbs\"  data-thumbnail=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/06\/Binder-detail-e1718814273823.png?fit=300%2C225&#038;ssl=1\"  title=\"Unbounded, 2019\"  data-width=\"300\"  data-height=\"225\" ><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img-data-popup\"  data-popup=\"https:\/\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/06\/Binder-detail-e1718814273823.png\"  title=\"Unbounded, 2019\" ><\/div><div class=\"thumbnail-overlay\"><div class=\"rbsTitle \">Unbounded, 2019<\/div><div class=\"rbsIcons\"><i class=\"fa fa-search-plus rbsZoomIcon \" ><\/i><\/div><\/div><\/div><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img  category4930 \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-image   rbs-lightbox \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-thumbs\"  data-thumbnail=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/06\/Binder-nipple-detail-e1718814209587.png?fit=300%2C225&#038;ssl=1\"  title=\"Binder nipple detail\"  data-width=\"300\"  data-height=\"225\" ><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img-data-popup\"  data-popup=\"https:\/\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/06\/Binder-nipple-detail-e1718814209587.png\"  title=\"Binder nipple detail\" ><\/div><div class=\"thumbnail-overlay\"><div class=\"rbsTitle \">Binder nipple detail<\/div><div class=\"rbsIcons\"><i class=\"fa fa-search-plus rbsZoomIcon \" ><\/i><\/div><\/div><\/div><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img  category4930 \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-image   rbs-lightbox \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-thumbs\"  data-thumbnail=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/05\/DSCN2600-scaled-e1717088848763.jpg?fit=300%2C236&#038;ssl=1\"  title=\"Stuffed, 2024\"  data-width=\"300\"  data-height=\"236\" ><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img-data-popup\"  data-popup=\"https:\/\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/05\/DSCN2600-scaled-e1717088848763.jpg\"  title=\"Stuffed, 2024\" ><\/div><div class=\"thumbnail-overlay\"><div class=\"rbsTitle \">Stuffed, 2024<\/div><div class=\"rbsIcons\"><i class=\"fa fa-search-plus rbsZoomIcon \" ><\/i><\/div><\/div><\/div><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img  category4930 \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-image   rbs-lightbox \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-thumbs\"  data-thumbnail=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/05\/Lets-all-play-pretend_acrylic-on-paper_300dpi-scaled-e1717088152871.jpg?fit=148%2C300&#038;ssl=1\"  title=\"Let&#039;s all play pretend, 2023\"  data-width=\"148\"  data-height=\"300\" ><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img-data-popup\"  data-popup=\"https:\/\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/05\/Lets-all-play-pretend_acrylic-on-paper_300dpi-scaled-e1717088152871.jpg\"  title=\"Let&#039;s all play pretend, 2023\" ><\/div><div class=\"thumbnail-overlay\"><div class=\"rbsTitle \">Let&#039;s all play pretend, 2023<\/div><div class=\"rbsIcons\"><i class=\"fa fa-search-plus rbsZoomIcon \" ><\/i><\/div><\/div><\/div><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img  category4930 \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-image   rbs-lightbox \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-thumbs\"  data-thumbnail=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/05\/Self-portrait-e1717088200794.png?fit=300%2C300&#038;ssl=1\"  title=\"Self-portrait: as I came into being, 2018\"  data-width=\"300\"  data-height=\"300\" ><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img-data-popup\"  data-popup=\"https:\/\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/05\/Self-portrait-e1717088200794.png\"  title=\"Self-portrait: as I came into being, 2018\" ><\/div><div class=\"thumbnail-overlay\"><div class=\"rbsTitle \">Self-portrait: as I came into being, 2018<\/div><div class=\"rbsIcons\"><i class=\"fa fa-search-plus rbsZoomIcon \" ><\/i><\/div><\/div><\/div><\/div><div class=\"rbs-img  category4930 \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-image   rbs-lightbox \" ><div class=\"rbs-img-thumbs\"  data-thumbnail=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/sebastianrowlands.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/01\/Soul-burn_monoprint-1-scaled-e1674498553405.jpg?fit=229%2C300&#038;ssl=1\"  title=\"Soul burn, 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